Man In The Mirror

Growing up everyone is raised differently. Everyone has their own beliefs, morals and standards and even views. A lot of the time those aspects of people are taught to us. Some of them are definitely learned but a lot of how we are as people in my opinion is a taught trait by someone we look up to or the environment that we are raised in.

I feel so lucky to have been raised around strong women and by a father that never told me I couldn’t do something.  One of the life lessons that I was taught early that my father would always say was “Can’t never did anything.” Every time I used the word can’t around my father it was followed up with that statement. I remember it use to drive me crazy but now looking back I realized it pushed me to try and do my best whenever something tried to get in my way.  Whenever I wanted to try something knew my dad has had my back even if he thought it wasn’t the best idea he still supported me. I was raised by a heck of a guy that yes definitely isn’t perfect but he helped form me into a independent women that knows that the sky is the limit if I want to reach it.

The women in my life that also helped shape me into the independent driven women that I am helped to teach me that it is ok to lean on someone if you need to but it is also ok to stand on your own two feet and be ok with who you are. I have had such an amazing village help raise me and I will forever be grateful for that.

Being raised to be independent is a curse as well as a blessing. Some find me to be cocky because I truly believe that I can accomplish whatever I want. Some find me selfish because I don’t want my own children. Some find me to be to independent because I am not constantly on the search for someone to date/marry because I truly am ok with who I as a single woman. To those people that think that about me I thank them and also feel for them.

I thank them for seeing me as a strong women that knows that I am not just on this earth to just survive but on this earth to live. I thank them for saying I am selfish because when they get to the bottom of it I know what I want and how my heart and head feel. I thank them because they can see that I am ok on my own and not sad or lonely. I feel for them because deep inside 9/10 times your haters hate something about themselves that they haven’t worked out.

This world is hard and this world can suck. People can be your friend at one point and turn around and prove to you that they actually aren’t. But that is life. Sometimes life is hard, sometimes you have to push yourself to get out of bed, sometimes life is incredible and you want to yell from the rooftop. Every morning I try to thank God for another day on this earth because your day is what you make it. You can wake up hating life but why? Why not find the good in the bad? Why not be a friend to someone who needs you? Why not yell from the rooftop how good you have it even if you think that your world is falling apart? Everyone goes through things. Sometimes they are good sometimes they are bad but overall even at your bottom you are still doing good because you have still have the chance to live and change.

From the amazing people that helped raise me I also have a heck of a support group with my friends. There are a handful of people that I know I can call at any time day or night and they will be there for me. Even the friends that I have grown apart from and that I am not super close with anymore I know still have my back because I have theirs. Aside from your blood family I truly believe that the people you surround yourself with turn into your family. They turn into your tribe, your ride or dies, the ones you can call in the middle of the night and know that they will come to you if you need them. They know you better then you know yourself most of the time and can tell by the look on your face if you are ok or not. Those are the people that you hang onto a little bit harder because even in the crappy times you know you have each others back. To say I’m grateful for my tribe is an understatement because they truly know me and the independent person I  am.

Aside from being independent and having an amazing support system that yes I realize not everyone has I also try to be kind and volunteer.  As Ellen Degeneres would say “Be kind to one another.” That little statement has stuck with me since I first heard it. Why not be kind? Why not say hi to the random person you pass or even just a simple smile can go a long way.  This world has so much hate in it why not be the person that helps bring joy? Volunteer for something not to make yourself feel better but because you want to make a difference. Take the time to find your happy, support your people that support you, help a person in need, make a difference in someones life especially a child’s and overall just be kind and love one another.  When you look in the mirror make sure you are happy with the person that you see because in the end if you aren’t happy with yourself are you truly doing what you are meant to be doing?

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Where We Go

img_2347Life is such an amazing ride. Everyday brings somethings different. Even the people who are planners. The ones that try to have every day planned out. The ones who don’t like surprises or changes to their plans have to bend because the day changes as we go through it. Luckily for me I have never really been a planner. I have also been a dreamer and a goal setter but I would definitely not call myself a planner. I enjoy waking up and seeing where the day ends up. I like the mystery in it. I think that’s why this journey that I am on works so great for me. I can wake up in the morning have an idea of what needs to get done that day and the check of an app, text or call can total change it. It can send me back on the road enjoying this amazing country that I get to live in. March was definitely a month of random road trips and more memories. We got some of the girls together and celebrated Erica’s birthday at Sierra Nevada in Chico.

Along with working softball season was in full swing. The girls were practicing and learning the game. I was blessed to grow up playing this awesome sport. I played up until middle school and do to an injury I didn’t play in high school which looking back now I wish I would’ve continued. But for me that’s one of the things about this sport is even when you have the opportunity to coach it brings back all the love you forgot you had for it. Getting to watch the girls find their love for the sport is one of my favorite parts. I truly enjoy getting to coach the girls.

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I am a fan of colder weather. For me there is nothing better than snuggling up in a sweatshirt with a beanie on. I love how the grass turns green in March and I love that I still get to wear my beanie and sweatshirts. March also brings my favorite holiday. Saint Patrick’s Day comes around and I get excited. St. Patrick’s day for me means the tradition of corned beef and cabbage, drinks and usually a night out with some of my friends. I usually always try to have a crazy outfit to wear and then I see where the night takes us. This years St.Patrick’s day was a fun one with a much-needed girls night with Callie, Shianne and Alicia. We had a blast and of course laughed.

The end of March brought a trip to Salt Lake City to pick up a horse trailer for a friend. And then the bigger trip back to the Midwest. I was super excited for the trip out because a lady I have known my whole life was going with me. I had a road trip partner that liked to travel and didn’t mind putting in hours on the road.

We left Red Bluff on a Saturday afternoon and we were planning on driving straight through to Indiana. Well God had a different plan. In the middle of Nevada we got caught in a white out snow storm so we decided to sleep for the night in Elko. The next day we made our journey across. We crossed Utah, cut down to highway 70 and drove into Colorado, Nebraska, across Iowa, Illinois and finally made it to Indiana. We made it to Indiana on Monday afternoon. Got to spend a little bit of time with Jenny and Martin that night. We got a good nights sleep and back on the road we went. This time we took a trailer up to Pennsylvania. Up until that trip I had never been to Pennsylvania so I was happy to check off another state off the list. We got the trailer dropped and went up to Williamsport where we got to tour the Little League World Series Museum. The museum was really neat to see and it was cool to learn the history of the Little League.

 

Back to Indiana we went this time we were trying to get a trailer to haul as close to Florida as possible. A trailer to Myrtle Beach came up and we booked it. I had never been to Myrtle Beach and it was only a few hours away from where Jens daughter lives so it was perfect. Taylor and her friend came up and met us in Myrtle Beach. We had a great time. Dinner at Senor Frogs and then we ended the night at the karaoke bar listening to some actually good karaoke.

 

Saturday I said good-bye to Jen and Taylor and headed back to Indiana. Easter was on that sunday and I wanted to spend it with Jenny, Martin and the family. Easter was great. Dinner was awesome and we enjoyed spending the day at the lake house. Monday I decided to take as another rest day. Just a reset from the driving. Jenny talked me into making a drop in Utah which is where she was headed. So off to Utah we went. On the way back from Utah we loaded my truck up onto her semi so we could enjoy the trip together. I always enjoy my time spent with Jenny. I’m definitely thankful to have her in my life. I was back in Indiana for a day when a load home popped up. So I said my good byes and headed home to California. After a few stops I made it to Sacramento in time to drop the trailer and even made it home for the softball game that night.

March and the beginning of April were awesome. Another road trip across the country checking off a few more states and spending time just enjoying the sights. Once I was home I spent four days at home. Those four days included softball, marrying a couple, and spending time with my family.

Before I knew it I was headed to Coeur d’Alene Idaho with some furniture for a friend. That trip allowed me to stop in Kennewick Washington and visit some friends that live there. I love getting to catch up with friends while I am on the road. I got the furniture dropped off and was able to grab lunch with a childhood friend. It was so great to see Sarah and catch up. I went back to Kennewick to spend one more night with my friends there. The next morning I was up early and headed to Caldwell Idaho to pick a horse up for another friend that lives close to home.

I was home once again and it was that time of year that brings the Red Bluff Round Up. It is one of the busiest times in Red Bluff. People travel from near and far for this rodeo. It is always a great time. Normally Saturday is the day were myself and a few friends let our hair down and just have a great time. But this year was different. Callie and I had to go to a bridal shower in Yreka saturday of Round Up and our friends that normally go were out-of-town. So saturday once I got home I was just the DD for a few other friends and home at a decent hour which was kind of strange. Sunday is the day my family goes. We always bet on the horse races and watch the rodeo together. It always great to see everyone and just enjoy the rodeo.

There is nothing better than time with friends and family and April brought a lot of time with both.

Sunrise

img_1202One of the best parts about being up early is the sunrise. Some sunrises take your breath away, some leave you in awe and some just make you thankful to be alive. The new year was upon me and what better way to enjoy the first morning spent in the valley then with three of your team GWG family in a duck blind enjoying the amazing sunrise that was before us.

img_1207Once again a few of us had the honor to go back down to Whitney’s family’s place and hunt ducks. The morning was perfect and the sunrise actually had us girls pause our talking for a moment. The birds were flying high that morning but once again memories and laughs happened. After the hunt was over Callie, Shianne and I were once again headed home.

img_1305Once I was home is was back to spending time with family and friends and working in the shop. But staying home doesn’t last to long. A few days after hunting with the girls I had the chance to once again duck hunt down in the Marysville area hunting with an awesome guy who is like my little brother. Nathan and I went down and hunted with his family member Butch. The two guys can work a duck call like no other. It was amazing getting to witness how they can make the ducks drop in. It was definitely another amazing day in the blind.  I have found that it definitely isn’t about how many ducks you harvest but it is the experience that makes the day.img_1369

The rest of January was busy. I had the opportunity to once again work the Girls With Guns booth at the International Sportsmen Expo in Sacramento with the awesome team.  Getting to work with team is the best. We have so much fun and the days fly by. The ISE offers everything you could think of for the sportsmen. Hunting, fishing, boats, kayaks, food, clothes and so much more. It’s a four-day show and by the end we are all worn out and tired but somehow always find the energy to have one night out. Saturday night usually ends up as that night.

After ISE was over it was onto the Red Bluff Bull & Gelding Sale working the GWG booth there. The Bull Sale is one of the biggest events in Red Bluff. It is always great to see the people you haven’t seen all year.

January in a whole was an incredible month and a great way to start out the year. Work, friends and memories.

February brought a month that not only included work but also more time with friends and family.

February brought a new little man into my life. Nella who is like a sister to me welcomed into the world Mr. Desmond. And this auntie couldn’t wait to get to Sacramento to see them. He was absolutely perfect in every way. It worked out perfect getting to visit them because I had to take a trailer to Boise and it needed to be picked up not to far from where they were.

img_1430The road trip from Tracy CA to Boise ID was another success. My friend Patience was able to go with me and it is always nice to have someone road trip with you. We made it to Boise saturday evening dropped the trailer and enjoyed some karaoke at one of the local bars. I have to say that kareoke is one of my favorite things to watch because it makes for great people watching. Sunday we loaded up and headed back to Red Bluff.

Once we got back to Red Bluff I slept for a night and took the trailer I brought home to the LA area. Now the exciting part about this was that I would get to see my cousin Chandra and her family. Once the trailer was dropped I went over to Chandra’s place and spent time with them. I also was able to take that next day off of work so we took the kids to Disneyland. Which the inner child in me was of soooo excited for. I hadn’t been to Disneyland since I was in high school so I think I actually was more excited than them. We met up with my good friend from home Kenny who actually works at Disneyland. We were able to spend some time with him in the park.

The first character we ran into was the one and only Cruella Deville which the kids wanted nothing to do with so of course Chandra and I jumped in with her to get a sassy photo. The list of characters we were able to see was awesome. Yes I know im a 27-year-old woman who truly enjoys getting to see and take photos with them. I think it just helps me stay young. Goofy gave the best hug, Mickey was awesome, Piglet and Eeyore were cute, and the others were just as awesome as the rest.

The day at Disneyland was an absolute blast! I enjoyed all the amazing treats that they recommend to try. The pretzel, churros, beignets, and the best of all the Dole pineapple soft serve.  We closed down the park that night after enjoying the light show in California Adventures. I was so grateful for the time spent with my cousin and little cousins. The memories we made will be with us for a lifetime and for that I am grateful.

February ended up with spending more time enjoying the road, watching my niece Makenna play volleyball and spending even more time with friends and family. It also brought the beginning of the 2018 softball season. This year I would be helping to coach a minor girls team which I was excited about.