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As we say good bye today to 2018 I find myself looking back over the past year. It was a year of love, hope, travel, sadness and learning more about who I am. I love reflecting on the years past. I love to look back and see where I was and where I am today. My goal for 2018 wasn’t to be anyone but me. I wanted to focus on myself and do what I wanted to do. For me traveling gives me the time to think and ponder about life. It is my me time. The time that I give to myself to think through life.

This last year I learned to say no to things I didn’t want to do. I learned that you can be yourself and that the people that love you will still be by your side. I learned that even tho you love someone it doesn’t mean that you are always going to agree with them but you can still respect them. I learned that diversity is one of my favorite things now days. I learned that I am a total gypsy. I would rather be traveling, learning on the road and seeing new things every day then staying in one place for a long time. I have learned that you can be a good person and love your family and friends while you are on the road.

I have been in big cities, small towns, listened to the waves crash in the Pacific ocean and listened to the waves crash in the Atlantic ocean all in this year. I have met people that would give you the shirt off their back and people that wouldn’t. I have come to love the noise of the big cities. The sounds of cars, people talking, tall buildings surrounding you and just the amazing sites you can find in the big cities. I find myself feeling so small in those busy cities and sometimes find myself standing against a building just soaking in the hustle of the busy streets and smiling.

I learned that even while being away from “home” you can find home wherever you are. You can still be a true friend that is only a phone call away. You can be an aunt that is trying to show the little people in her life that it is ok to chase their dreams and if there is a will there is a way. Life isn’t about being unhappy or money but life is to be lived. My all time favorite quote is “To live would be an awfully big adventure!” and believe in that quote full heartedly.  I have coached some of the greatest girls in little league and learned that even while being competitive it is ok to just fall in love with the game all over again.

This year has been a learning year. It has been a year where there were moments where I just wanted to sit down and cry while other days I couldn’t be happier. I think that is how every year is but this year I feel like I grew more into the person I wanted to be. I quit thinking so much about what others think and just let down my guard and said this is me. I pierced my nose after wanting it for years and one of my best friends told me “hey it’s your life and you have to do what makes you happy and forget what others think, just be you.” Thanks Em for always having my back and supporting my crazy ideas.  I love with everything I am. I try to see the best in everyone. I would give anything I had to the ones I love and overall just try to be a good human.

I am definitely not perfect and I have definitely made my mistakes but everyday I try my best to find the good in the world. I try to find the happy in every day. I try to be there for my people and I try to be there for myself. As I continue to say goodbye to 2018 I also want to thank this year. Thank you for teaching me, opening doors, keeping myself and loved ones safe and thank you for the memories. There is so many amazing memories that happened this year. Thank you for true friends that are there no matter what. I have some of the best in my corner and I don’t know where I would be without my support system.

So here is to 2019! A year of more change, travel, friendship and a year of becoming more of myself. Happy New Year!